new grade

hii bloog! it's been a year maybe ..no it's more like 6 month or..oh whatever,yeah its been like a couple of months i dont write this blog,im a senior now and that's mean im ready for UAN or can be called the "FINAL EXAM" it's the reason i can't really do blogging or writing or whatever,because i had a tight schedule..okay maybe its sounds like im boosting it but true,normally ive go to school gossiping,eating,praying,gossiping,sleeping,home,dvd-ing and sleeping. but now it's like homework-ing everyday..everyday is full of humongous crap homework. whether it's a presentation or a paper work,still it's a homework.

Many stories that i havent had a time to write it in here that has been passed,but now im gonna tell it. first,it turns out that disty and bangjo = not really working,disty had a new boyfriend now his name is jodi and he's our classmate,they've met long before were a classmate so it's not really surprising that(finally) they were a couple. its weird that i had this feeling that im happy and sad at the same time when i heard disty had boyf,okay maybe im not sounds like a good friend,but its not like i dont want her to happy or anything it just because all this time me and disty are like a partner in crime when it's about a boy,like when im with edo she's with joe,and the fact that we had a same love stories(i mean about our ex bf) and now she had a boyfriend and im happy with it but i just hope that she's still remember me and all..uhh i know i sounds like a bad friend :(  but anyway jodi is a nice guy she's not a typical jerky or scumbag and i know that jodi loves her very much so i hope theyd be a nice happy long lasting couple(amen).

Okay talk about a boy,i don't really have someone that close to me and i mean boy,yeah like always-.- i mean it's not like no one wants me or anything,i think it just because im just too traumatic about my past love stories that i told to myself not to have nor to seek a boyf for now,and "now" begin to "months" and i feel happy about it,okay maybe not happy but atleast i feel save,i think that atleast i dont have to feel my heart thumping again or thinking about someone all the time or being awkward all the time or talk about sa guy to my friend so they can now how much i love him, no..i dont have to do it when i dont love someone.

Speaking about idontlikeanyguy me and edo = done,i know maybe i sound weird because he's just an omegle friend but it's obvious maybe i really like him and you know what? i just found out that i have this weird desease that when i know someone care to me (and for this case i mean a"guy") i just ditch them, that's it ditch-them! so when edo happen to be more care to me i just sign off my msn and never ever(literally)opened it again(until now) some other girls maybe a normal one would be happy if they found out that they have a secret admirer,but not me..and before i got this too far and people think im a lesbo just erase that thought im not a lesbo in fact i loved guys i totally would love to tap them,but it just been a long time for me.

I've been literally closed my heart for any guy out there when i know beny cruelly broke my heart,i think that karma does exist and i deserved it because i broke someone heart too. So because of it i start to don't even want to speak to any guy..really.okay not literally,i still talk to my classmate or schoolmate and a bunch of old friends but it's because i know them and they dont trying to get to know me,but when it's about some guys some stranger guys i can't, just can't, my mind and my body just mix up and tell me to ditch them and it really irritating but i just cant talk to them,you know did it's just because im too shy? or im just too awkward to be true *sigh*.

o yeah and btw year 12 it's pretty good not necessary,it's like a cool year everyone so mature and all. but still 11 grade are the best. uh oh i just wanna tell you that insyallah next week i would get my new ipod touch YAAY and its because i saved my money and i try so hard to not really eat at school, so now i can have an ipod again mihihihi.


okay thats all for now
regards,dira