finally my blog account has been activated! you know i was desperated because i thought i would never gonna be able to use this blog ever again because my account has been deactivated by this effin google! yeah it's not entirely google fault tho' it's because lately i've never use my blog,and yeah not because i didn't want to but because i don't really had a time to write.
you now how sad i am to know that how i didn't really had a time to wrote my story because i've missed so much story that i didn't write in this blog and it kills me.
well anyway now im a proud "university of padjadjaran" student that's for sure
Regards, Dira
Rabu, 07 September 2011
Sabtu, 05 Maret 2011
Bonkers
hey it's me again! guess what? im supposed to be study now but you can see now that i don't know why my head just want to blogging and i just can't control it so..yeah. hmm lemme think...okay! a couple weeks ago i told you that im in love right? well ive had a great yet bad news.
i think im gonna strart with the good news...well the good news is......that SNEIJDER GUY ADDED ME TO HIS BLACKBERRY MESSENGER! ahahahah yeah i know right.
but then again im less excited now because it has been a days since he's added me.
oh yeah i forget to tell you the bad news is, okay it has been a couple things that disturb me,you know..im not like any other girls out there..well if it is i just don't act like other normal girls do when it comes to love. okay now i sounds like a bonkers..i mean other girls may acted like completly normal,like their in love and thats it. But me? im more like a monkey love type,i feel like im new to this kind of things which is not btw! i feel like all of my experience with boys is totally gone from my mind,and i just don't know what i have to do now. sometimes i just blame myself for all of this,maybe it's because after all of this im pretending to be tough im pretend that love,or crush,or whatever it is,it isn't important.
i know that ive been protecting myself from other especially guys.because i don't want to be hurt again,but then again i just realize that it is wrong. love or like or whatever it is,it's from our own heart..gosh i don't fucking now what im talking right now but i feels so right, yeah love or like or something like that it's bloom suddenly just like that,you can't control it nor deny it. because i just feel it now,how hard you protect yourself it doesnt matter,because sooner or later you will admit it. and you cant deny it because it's from you and you can't run from yourself,even if it's an unrequited love,so be brave and go through it and just hope that time will heal it.
Regards, Dira
i think im gonna strart with the good news...well the good news is......that SNEIJDER GUY ADDED ME TO HIS BLACKBERRY MESSENGER! ahahahah yeah i know right.
but then again im less excited now because it has been a days since he's added me.
oh yeah i forget to tell you the bad news is, okay it has been a couple things that disturb me,you know..im not like any other girls out there..well if it is i just don't act like other normal girls do when it comes to love. okay now i sounds like a bonkers..i mean other girls may acted like completly normal,like their in love and thats it. But me? im more like a monkey love type,i feel like im new to this kind of things which is not btw! i feel like all of my experience with boys is totally gone from my mind,and i just don't know what i have to do now. sometimes i just blame myself for all of this,maybe it's because after all of this im pretending to be tough im pretend that love,or crush,or whatever it is,it isn't important.
i know that ive been protecting myself from other especially guys.because i don't want to be hurt again,but then again i just realize that it is wrong. love or like or whatever it is,it's from our own heart..gosh i don't fucking now what im talking right now but i feels so right, yeah love or like or something like that it's bloom suddenly just like that,you can't control it nor deny it. because i just feel it now,how hard you protect yourself it doesnt matter,because sooner or later you will admit it. and you cant deny it because it's from you and you can't run from yourself,even if it's an unrequited love,so be brave and go through it and just hope that time will heal it.
Regards, Dira
Rabu, 16 Februari 2011
i can! can i?
before i begin,just guess..what is the most fascinating yet boring topic on the entire world?.......i think most pepople know,yep it's LOVE. Sounds cliche huh? but yeah,according to my experience love is one of the most interesting subject that can lead human to reveal all their feelings to someone else,either its direct or indirect,either verbal or internet.Thats why i wrote this blog,so i can tell you that Dira afgter 2 years 14 days 5 second can finally like someone,i mean like..like "like".
Okay so it's started with a pretty good day,it's valentines day actually.aah yeah valentines day..the day of love, i started it like every other cliche romantic comedy movies in hollywood. So i went to school like always and because its valentine my classmates decided to bring our own chocolate to school,well..its more like exchange chocolate for friends.
I bring "bengbeng" btw, but anyway thats not even important,whats important is,because its valentine ,gendis gave her homemade pie to her crush,you can call him "mamat".Unfortunately mamat forgot to bring anything to her so thats a pity...but that's just the beginning for everything. It turns out that mamat actually remember thats today is valentine,so he decided to give a little surprise for gendis after school.
Because tomorrow is free day. chika,gendis,nadine and i decided to go karaoke after school. At school second break time,chika told me that theres something special waiting for me after school. ive already guessed it several times but she insisted to not to tell me unless we're at karaoke. At Happy puppy we waited for like 15 minutes and then were going to karaoke,like 18 munutes later,we were heard someone knocked the door and when we opened the door mamat come and give gendis a bouquet of flowers,i was very happr for them.
Not mention there's someone else standing behind mamat's back. and when i looked up......TADAAAA there's a SNEIJDER! well not literally sneijder but if you ask 79% kids in my grade especially girls they must know what i mean. Sneijder is the hottest junior at my school(or atleast thats what i think). Sneijder(whom btw his faked name is more famous than his real name) is a junior that ive been seeing for like when mbs started till now. I am the one who made his faked name sneijder because he looks like that sneijder guy from worldcup.
Okay back to karaoke.soo there we are. at the same room,sit at the same COACH! and i was like baby baby baby ooh..baby baby baby noo(okay cut it),and i was like..is this even real?!.I mean okay..i like him..but its like a fans liked their idol, but then i think..if the fan really meet their idol..can it be something more...deep?.Then when we are finished,mamat and sneijder ride their motorcycle and when he past me he smile and wave at me!.
And thats why im suffering right now,thats why my heart is thumping very hard! thats why i look gloomy everyday, thats why every time i think ive always though about I CAN i can certainly can close to him,but then again i think again...can i?.
Regards, Dira
Okay so it's started with a pretty good day,it's valentines day actually.aah yeah valentines day..the day of love, i started it like every other cliche romantic comedy movies in hollywood. So i went to school like always and because its valentine my classmates decided to bring our own chocolate to school,well..its more like exchange chocolate for friends.
I bring "bengbeng" btw, but anyway thats not even important,whats important is,because its valentine ,gendis gave her homemade pie to her crush,you can call him "mamat".Unfortunately mamat forgot to bring anything to her so thats a pity...but that's just the beginning for everything. It turns out that mamat actually remember thats today is valentine,so he decided to give a little surprise for gendis after school.
Because tomorrow is free day. chika,gendis,nadine and i decided to go karaoke after school. At school second break time,chika told me that theres something special waiting for me after school. ive already guessed it several times but she insisted to not to tell me unless we're at karaoke. At Happy puppy we waited for like 15 minutes and then were going to karaoke,like 18 munutes later,we were heard someone knocked the door and when we opened the door mamat come and give gendis a bouquet of flowers,i was very happr for them.
Not mention there's someone else standing behind mamat's back. and when i looked up......TADAAAA there's a SNEIJDER! well not literally sneijder but if you ask 79% kids in my grade especially girls they must know what i mean. Sneijder is the hottest junior at my school(or atleast thats what i think). Sneijder(whom btw his faked name is more famous than his real name) is a junior that ive been seeing for like when mbs started till now. I am the one who made his faked name sneijder because he looks like that sneijder guy from worldcup.
Okay back to karaoke.soo there we are. at the same room,sit at the same COACH! and i was like baby baby baby ooh..baby baby baby noo(okay cut it),and i was like..is this even real?!.I mean okay..i like him..but its like a fans liked their idol, but then i think..if the fan really meet their idol..can it be something more...deep?.Then when we are finished,mamat and sneijder ride their motorcycle and when he past me he smile and wave at me!.
And thats why im suffering right now,thats why my heart is thumping very hard! thats why i look gloomy everyday, thats why every time i think ive always though about I CAN i can certainly can close to him,but then again i think again...can i?.
Regards, Dira
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